My shadow

You never really pay your shadow much attention do you? Think about it. See, you really don't pay that little black marking on the ground any attention at all. I know I never did. Then it happened, I became a mother and I went from having one shadow that really didn't serve any purpose, never said a word, nothing it was just there to having a second shadow, and now a third. The second shadow tugged on my leg for several years, it talked to me, it followed me and my original shadow everywhere I went. I couldn't shake it, it was everywhere!!  That little shadow is bigger now, but it's still there. Not tugging at my leg quite as much but boy does it ever talk still! Then low and behold, I found myself with three shadows! I gained zero weight but I now have three separate shadows that follow me from the time my feet hit the floor until I go to bed again. This third shadow is almost as if it is physically attached to my body at times. It's chubby, short, and oh so cute. It prefers to hang off my hip more then my leg. It has a tendency to hit me in the chest too when it's not getting it's way.

With Carter, March 16, 2008...

You've guessed by now, I'm talking about Carter-bug, and Tucker-bear. I remember as a child my mother would say, "I have a shadow, I don't need another", or she would say after hearing us call out mom a thousand times "mom's not here anymore. She is off today!" I have those days quite often but my shadows remind me to walk a little straighter. They remind me that I'm being watched and therefore I need to be the example I want them to see. The old saying, apples don't fall far from the tree... true, true, true!

With Tucker...

I took a shadow picture with Carter back in March of 2008, yesterday I did one with Tucker. Knowing that I had one of each of them my mind started turning and that's when I started thinking about how much they watch us. I want to be a good impression for them. When they talk about me when they are older I want them to have positive memories. I want them to say I lived a life pleasing to God. My new question to myself when I get frustrated or at my wits end is going to be, 'is your shadow one that you want your children to stand in? Your little shadows are watching... remember!' I am challenging myself to be a better shadow.